Mammals and reptiles need the nest. They've got territory to raise the offspring and which they defend, often to the death. They often need also a community where to live in, or at least contacts to other ones, some kind of gatherings happen every now and then, especially around the mating time. They seek food for themselves or for the group, they look after each other. Loosing the position in the herd is often devastating. Being a loner is more demanding and especially with the offspring, getting food and teaching the structures of the social actions, is either hard or impossible. Humans are mammals, that often act based by the reptile level instincts without even realizing how it's happening. For many people insects and other invertebrate creatures are "out of the system" or "out of the order" images, slimy and disgusting. Backbone is thought to be the best of the human attributes, and someone "without it" isn't human at all. Where does it come from?
Responsibility in the tribe means, that everybody has a function. Everybody work for the common good, with the best that they've got to give. Everybody pay the bills, taxes and follow certain rules, how life shoud be going and handled. Structure and manuscript of the life is often pre-written in a way, that full potential would flash it in all of it's glory; if everything went right, then happened this and this. In the sur-plus effect of a human life, this rarely happens. Either everything goes like it's meant, and people reach certain turning point, where evaluation of the fulfilled dreams come into question. Are these truly own ideas, or someone else's? Is one truly like this, if people observe one through these and these lenses; has one truly lived by own standards? Is one truly happy, or just crying inside, when everything looks nice, people are jealous and one would leave the built life in a minute if one had an option to it? What could be the choice - what kind of life would suit one best? Is this spouse the best possible, is one treated well with love and respect and could one value common or the spouse's achievements with pride and honor?
The other outcome is, that "this doesn't serve anymore" and everything is shattered, destroyed and chaos or void created, burned to ashes in a way that Fenix could arise. Everything goes in a way that one can only wonder is there any kind of control over the TV show that's called life; is there anything that one could possibly do to create any kind of structure to the chaos? For some people life is a travel from a point A to point Z through certain pinpoints in their life. They can't create lasting relationships, they're not interested about people, they don't mind attaching to anything.
Is a person, who is followed by chaos, a spineless monster or a glorified "non-attachmental spiritual bliss" who doesn't need anyone, anything and isn't part of actually anything? They seen to be wanderers whose home is carried along and who just needs to protect themselves from the beasts like birds or hedgehogs or fish. They go with the flow and seem to live their (often short) lives without a purpose; but does it mean that they're lost? No, not all that wander, are lost.
Worms keep the earth good, they're welcomed visitors by gardeners. They sculpture the land and they have their place underground. Shrimps are excellent food for many. Snails are a bit of nuicance for gardeners, but at least some of the species are a delicate French quisine dish for gourmand. At spiritual levels one can understand a great deal of inspirational levels through thinking, why "everything has a purpose". This is non-judgemental state and observation of the nature has inspirated visionists at all ages. Even disgusting things have issues, why they are there. Mao in China decided that he wants small birds killed. After a havock the country was devastated by insects, who suddenly were out of harvesters and got to use their power over harvest -and then became the hunger. Bringing rabbits to Australia made the whole country a mess; they did a great harm in the new surroundings. Destroying a part of ecological system without understanding the consequences is never wise. Judging each other is a similar issue. One shouldn't harm each other and poison spread by word is harming itself. Those venoms effect in the electrical levels and ripping down the judgements is always harder than spreading them. One should therefore consider, why to feel so threatened, that judging comes to question.
Community needs structure. Those, who don't like others, are afraid of them, can't comprehend the roles and the rules, often search privacy in the monastery. Or this kind of loners lead their lives alone and try to avoid others as much as possible. Some people just need to wander; attaching to any community means givving up the independency. Some people find it safety area, that they change their structures every now and then; so there comes no poisoning or bad memories, when expectations of the others' arent fulfilled. Those who don't care of the community, often break the rules and roles; can't comprehend with the idea. That is either faced as rebellion or carelessness, so that the responsibilities of the common good aren't served. Maybe these wanderers have different logic of the things that they serve? Maybe it's part of THEIR lessons, not observers? In many occasions these who are considered irresponsible and devastaters have incredible, charming and seducing aura of creative powers. If not handled wise, they serve destruction.
Whenever someone irritates so much, that there arises idea of judging someone being irresponsible, one could and should search own karmic levels, why this kind of individual has landed to ones' life. There is always a common surface between one and the others - why unpleasant lessons ARE there, what are they telling, especially when the lessons are rubbed to the face and often repeating themselves? What does the lesson teach; how should it be handled? Challenge of "not belonging" has been my own task, and therefore these sleazebags tend to follow me in many ways. They're quite harmless; they don't bite, they don't attack, yet they're annoying. They glow and they're slimy, wet trail behind them isn't pleasant. Strawberries are half eaten in the garden and shrimps can give herendous diaorrhea if they're not properly cooked. Well; if I'm considered and compared to these fellows, no wonder people get goose bumps of me. Turning out the lessons to positive isn't flashing a victim card or defending oneslef; it's about observating things from "turn around perspective".
At karmic levels warriors can't attach to anything. Every day could be the last day - and this is hard lesson to anybody. Stroke, car accident or other surprising effects could end anybody's life in a second. The idea of the family, country as territory or the idea of the religious victory can be the surroundings enough in a way, that local territory or location of home isn't even needed. Nest can't be made anywhere, because one must be "on the move" all the time. Religious ideas of the Paul in the Bible base to this; Kingdom of the Heavens could come by any minute, so who cares about the house keeping? Searching food and eating and praying could be enough. Money can be robbed from the others after battles or that can be reason for a fight and destruction, but it can't be taken to the other side after death; so why on Earth carry it around? Soldiers just take what's necessary wherever they go; and that's enough for them. It isn't considered as stealing, it's a lifestyle, attitude, that everything is there to be used. Of course those who feel used and aspecially misused, feel them self righteously victims. Legend of Lalli from the medievals hits to this kind of painpoint in social awareness. In Finland thee was a tradition of guesthouse. If the Bishop had asked, that if there was food and nightstand, he propably would have been given them. But because he came to house and told it's the King's order, the wife of the Lalli got pissed, and Lalli after her wives testimony went after him and made some murders. Idea of the body is also interesting. The body can be lost, so taking all advantage of it in pleasure and torturing others, is a part of soldiers' life. Who cares about cuddling, no one can be trusted and only necesary needs are fulfilled. Because there is no need of tribe or those who share the battle are the tribe, "the family" or "spouse" can be long term fantasies, but not everyday realities. MAybe they're not even needed in the everyday life; bodily needs are fulfilled with victims or others "used as tools". Mature sexuality, companionship in true dialogue and sharing atmosphere simply doesn't exist in the battle field.
During the battles isn't time for being emotional or think if the killing is done to another human or vicious enemy; has he possibly wife or kids or birthday or anything. The less there are emotions, the better it all can be handled. And the surface of the cruelty must be thick; humanity comes a tool, not a principle; the better one knows how to hurt, the faster one gets what's needed. Through fighting, danger and territorial reactions (the only territory there can be found, is one's own body) the reptile levels are mastered. Telepathy, seeking information by extracensory levels brings instincts to more important value than verbal communication. Therefore electric, bodily and verbal communication need to be connected so, that one knows truly what one's reflecting. Those who have shared battlefields in the families during young age are used to censor the nonverbal levels more than verbal side. For those people, words are empty and everything behind it, counts more.
Considering the good, creative cycle one should have trust, good vibes and safety at all these previous levels, in order to master the next level - creation. Hobbies, mature sexuality and passion for powerful and good results bringing work can't be mastered, if one is shaking at the levels I described earlier. So, in the soldier's life destruction is the main point; but how to manage the destrution as results bringing, how to maintain chaos to birth; that's the question. In soldier's vision the other or "now" must be destructed in order to create new, glorified kingdom. Therefore the detruction is the tool of creation. How come cahnge the idea in this life, where I should give and not take; when I should share and lesson people to receive? Now it's time to destruct the manners of destruction of PEOPLE, destruction is needed in the social structures that CAUSE the deaths; like unability of love and receiving abundance when offered, because misery, slavery and abuse are "full of purpose". Creative forces are striking; the power is huge, channelling them to right direction is challenging and meaningful operation. Trying to suffocate it, faces one immense rage that is totally new experience for anyone. Anything that comes to challenge the need of creation, urge to rise the seed to a tree, becomes the sculpted land. Therefore one needs time to create, needs to take a nap or free minutes from the calendar to think what ever one needs to, in order to achieve the full potential on life. Those who choose to give up and turn the rage inside, destroy themselves quite fast.
Teaching and raising offspring is the final level in the observation. Those who wander around can be there, present, in the "space between" even if not "right there". The idea of a father or mother "fighting htere somewhere for me and for family" is better than having no parent at all. Letters, connection, contacts, nowadays e-mails, skype and telephone, even facebook, give the feeling that the parent is "around" emotionally even if the presence isn't possible. This is non-attached parenthood and a model that jumps from parents to offspring. Often this kind of companion is chosen, if the presence could be threatening somehow, or if one wants or has lessoned oneself "to handle everything". Often being "alone in a companinship" is symbiotic and harder to let go, because it feels like independency is lost. Many people find out after divorce from this kind of relationship, that they were happier when the "not-present companion" was actually, truly away and absent, because the showing up created more chaos and some kind of theatre was supposed to be built when the other came around. Sometimes people, who carry "not present parenthood" idea find themselves as sponsors, not parents. When they're supposed to keep company with kids or spouse they can't be there, because it's strange situation and the people are different than the images of them. The life seems to be strange theatre, indeed.
In a true companionship responsibilities should and could be shared. The territory should be shared in peace, the close companion should feel safe. One should be able to sleep safely around the other. Cuddling is more intimate than fucking and many react to the end of cuddling like the betrayal already happened and the relationship had already ended. Fights over values about the money are devastating; people don't know if they need it or not and how much is safe to have, or shouldn't there be any money at all. People can't often verbalize their emotions, and sharing them in bodily or wordless ways isn't possible with everybody. What happens, if the relationship is considered as a battle filed? Communication is often more a battle of territorial mastering than true sharing of ideas. If one feels threatened at any earlier levels, creative sexuality isn't possible and "fight for survival" kills any kind of creative urges. For example need of watching out the safety of the offspring, there isn't lust for going to hobbies. Or if one needs to fear of the spouses reactions or threats in any other levels, sexual communication can't happen in deep levels. And it's obvious by now, that raising offspring together to common goal is impossible, if the games played in different levels aren't same or if it's impossible to change ideas of the rules and goals at all.
The pressure from the social network is really heavy toward "right way of doing things" so, that many can't observe what are OWN true virtues and what come from outside, even that what directions they come from. Inner dialogue out spoken is a good way to observe this ping-pang-pong whose life I'm presenting and whose values I'm following and whose ideas I'm going to manifest. It's good to draw an aquarium, where one draws a fish, numbers them and then gives a feeling to it. Then one can think that what kind of emotions are related to whom in the closest social networks, what are the stories behind the emotions - and these lists can again be burned. There aren't right or wrong ways of living. It's the idea of "what's my paradise" and "do I deserve it" and if one doesn't "why the hell not" people can't comprehend; because the culture of relationships and about life, work and many other important daily issues is, that "the hard life is the right life". Why? Is it truly a virtue, that one is good and has backbones only, if there's a huge network to carry, huge amount of sorrow, bitterness and anger behind every woken up morning? Why is it shameful to lead an eas life without a roleplay, that comes with managing the team and raising a family?
If such responsibilities are taken, one sould observe oneself harshly; what can one really do, how can one really be a parent, is one really devoted to raising the offspring and could one really carry the financial and emotional responsibility of the offspring? Many times these abilities raise along with the kids; one survives by instinct and learns how to handle different issues. But as many times it comes clear, that one simply can't carry the responsibilities. In these cases I find it better to make it clear to oneself and lead a life that manifests these virtues. Being true to oneself and living by own Will is more respectful and honest than trying to struggle after others virtues and wants and needs. Child can raise up wondering and studying these two different worlds in the Roots, but loosing faith time after another to parent is like loosing faith to oneself or life altogether. It's not dishonest to be someone who can't comprehend to community virtues; but it's better be understood and considered in a way that it doesn't harm the community either. Different communities have different values. Searching a tribe where one can feel safe and find common understanding of the structure is also possible. Irresponsibility in one community is a virtue in another. Loosing hope and judging, skinning the hope, isn't good for anyone. Everybody has a purpose.
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